Changes within

Wow me at a loss for words, now thats something less of a joke.  Any other time I have a million things going through my head or on my tounge just waiting to be spoke but now nothing.  This monster that has entered my life is unbearable at times.  How many times my mind has wandered back to all the times aunts or friends would tell me the "Dangers" of the tanning bed and the sun.  How I wish I would of listend to them and maybe I wouldnt be in this situation today.  Why cant we ever just be happy with who we are and what we look like?? Why does society want young girls to think that thin and tan is Beautiful??  If only I could of been comfortable in my own skin....