Saturday, January 7, 2012
Wow me at a loss for words, now thats something less of a joke. Any other time I have a million things going through my head or on my tounge just waiting to be spoke but now nothing. This monster that has entered my life is unbearable at times. How many times my mind has wandered back to all the times aunts or friends would tell me the "Dangers" of the tanning bed and the sun. How I wish I would of listend to them and maybe I wouldnt be in this situation today. Why cant we ever just be happy with who we are and what we look like?? Why does society want young girls to think that thin and tan is Beautiful?? If only I could of been comfortable in my own skin....
Monday, January 2, 2012
One thing ive come to notice since being diagnosed with Melanoma is that I no longer have total "Peace" of mind or anything for that matter now. It's funny how one day your life is totally normal and in the blink of an eye or in hearing these 3 "You have Melanoma" you totally LOSE your PEACE OF MIND!! Is it something that you eventually get back??? Mixed emotions, mixed feelings not to mention anger and the helplessness of the unkown is all so much for one to bear at times., and makes me wonder if I have what it takes to FIGHT this monster and to keep fighting may it ever decide to come back for a 2nd visit!!